Saturday, October 6, 2012
Someone recently asked me how I accomplish so many things. I mean looking at my transcript I can definitely see what they mean. Although looking back I barely remember the blur that I call my high school career. I spent too many nights studying too hard and losing too much sleep. I still can't explain why I did it or why I pushed myself so hard. Anyways back to the question, tears. That's what the stressful life brought out of me. I had break downs in the middle of random things. Today it was while I was brushing my teeth before bed. It's like I force myself to stay strong for others that I forget about myself. I feel like everyone deserves to have at least someone they can see and say wow they really just do what they gotta do and handle themselves really well. That's me. I have this idealistic persona I want to be, but obviously will never embody. I'm basically working for an unknown goal. I don't know what I want with my life, I have no idea. I still haven't even started applications. I'm not even sure what colleges I want to apply to. Deciding my life in a few weeks is a bit scary. Well that's for another post. I don't know how to end this. My stomach is growling and I'm already in bed, it's probably because I only ate fruit snacks and chocolate today. When I stress I eat- a lot- and usually it's not the healthiest foods. I looked at the amount of homework I have and instantly got depressed. After an annoying SAT I have to sit down to do another 13 hours of homework. School is bs and I'm so angry that I waste my time learning from textbooks when I should be out in the world. Looking back all I can say is I wasted 12 years of my life sitting in a room trying to cram information that in the long run will not help me. Think about it, I could have been half way around the world helping someone less fortunate, but instead I waste my money, time, and health on education. I could have easily learned what I needed to know in a maximum of 5 years. Sudjidhdjdndojdkd I need to go to sleep. I have reached a point where I dream of exhaustion and wake up even more exhausted than when I went to bed. Senior year really don't seem so great.
Saturday, June 9, 2012
So this is my first post- pretty exciting!! Anyways today I had my dance recital, and this is the makeup I did. I used a bunch of products that I usually don't use. And for the first time ever- I USED THE COLORFUL COLORS IN MY INGLOT PALETTE. I got so many compliments and I am super excited to share a tutorial eventually. Any-who the recital went okay and I did not die of embarrassment.